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January 15, 2019, 11:26 AM

DEAD WOMAN WALKING…..Linda….COME FORTH!!


DEAD WOMAN WALKING…..Linda….COME FORTH!!

WHY is knowing what you want to do and are passionate about so hard to nail down?  When you used to know without a shadow of a doubt…it now comes into question?  Do I want to mentor or coach women?  Do I want to write a book?  Write a Blog?  Do I want to get a 9-5 job and live  what some call “a normal life”?  Do I want travel and do a Mid Life Women You Tube Channel/VLOG about it?  What is it that really sets my heart on fire with zeal and passion?    

OR…is that what this JOURNEY is all about…to rediscover who I am?  Or is to UNCOVER  and DIG UP the REAL and TRUE me that over time LIFE and all it’s dirt has buried??

A quote by Emily McDowell:  “Finding yourself is not really how it works.  You aren’t a ten-dollar bill in last winter’s coat pocket.  You are also NOT LOST.  Your TRUE SELF is right there, BURIED under cultural conditioning, other people’s opinions, and inaccurate conclusions you drew as a kid that became YOUR BELIEFS about who you are.  Finding yourself is actually a RETURNING TO YOURSELF.  An UNLEARNING, an EXCAVATION, a REMEMBERING who you are BEFORE the WORLD got it’s hands on you”

So it seems that under all the horrific ….and sometimes beautiful experiences that life takes us through – we have been BURIED!! Buried under the hurts and anguish of …the pain of divorce, loss of a loved one, loss of my size 3, 5’9” body, loss of my thriving jet-setting career, loss of a child, loss of your mom-purpose due to your nest is now empty, loss of your sexy-ness cause now your love life with the hubby has cooled, loss of a girlfriend you thought you could trust until you found her in bed with your husband while you were in labor, loss of one or both parents and now you really feel…ALONE and you really feel your “mortality” setting in. I am wanting this dead woman walking – to COME ALIVE again!  I want to have a real HUNGER for LIFE again!  I want to seek after new experiences and go places I’ve never gone before, while really appreciating the little moments that are everyday miracles happening to me right now! 

So this year…and the remaining years to come, I am CHALLENGING MYSELF to LIVE LIFE to the FULLEST!!  To coin the old cliché’…to THRIVE and not just SURVIVE!! 

I want to go on a really long road trip with a girlfriend I can trust, explore spiritual places right here in my own country, listen to my favorite music really loud while driving and sing along out of key at the top of my lungs, stop a lot at road side diner’s, drive-in’s and dives, stop to explore the local culture in new places, admire the view from the Grand Canyon, visit local coffee shops and listen to local bands, take pictures of mountains and amazing sunsets, walk barefoot, do something really brave, run on the beach through the water on the California Coast, chase the sun, spend hours just sitting in silence in the Red Wood forest…soaking it all in, feel the wind in my hair, be kinder and compassionate to myself, sleep under the stars in the Mojave…desert-ok maybe in a camper, buy tacky souvenirs, observe old cowboys in Montana, perfect my fly fishing skills, persuade an old cowgirl to let me buy her worn-in distressed leather boots, pray for people along the journey, make new friends, rent a convertible and drive up the California Coast on PCH, tour the winery’s in Napa Valley and eat good food and drink amazing wine, and most important…I want to LOVE WELL, and KNOW HIM, my JESUS!!

So,…as I continue in this “Winter Season” to explore the possibilities of living a LIFE on PURPOSE…of PURSUING a LIFE OF PASSION – I get excited.  I get excited that I am not going to stay STUCK…that I will continue to grow spiritually, emotionally and become healthy again.  That I will wake up EVERYDAY and CHOOSE JOY and CHOOSE and PRACTICE... GRATITUDE!! 

A pursuit to going deeper in Christ…and telling that old woman…

Linda….COME FORTH!!!

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December 28, 2018, 12:04 PM

ARE WE “GHOSTING” OURSELVES??


Have we for so long found or looked for our “identity” based on what roles we’ve played in the lives of our loved ones, family and friends??  Some of these could be…wife, girlfriend, lover, cook, housekeeper, mother, employer, boss, sister, daughter, friend, minister, pastor, counselor, mentor, speaker, volunteer,…and the list goes on!  How can I truly come to a clear “DEFINING” of who I am by ONLY the “FUNCTION” I play in the lives of SO many of the people that are in my sphere of influence? I think that is why sometimes in MIDLIFE when our lives experience the “LOSS” of a particular function or loss of a person, we are then smacked upside our newly found grey head, that we can no longer determine our value or get our affirmation of our identity from the “FUNCTION” of a person, as our  “FUNCTION” has ceased to exist!

SO we find we are in a befuddled mess of emotions and thoughts and feelings…all coming back to the age old questions:  WHO AM I?  WHY AM I HERE?  WHAT IS MY ETERNAL PURPOSE?

We come to this place of moving into the Stage 1 of DISENGAGING to go inward…to practice the pause to SEEK AFTER the ANSWERS to those questions! 

We move into a “Mid Life Quest for Identity”.  This quest might even endure into the ages of 50-60 years old, as circumstances continue to change, and desires continue to resurface, or maybe even be discarded as no longer relevant to us.  There is a theory in modern day psychology called Maslow’s Heirarchy of Human Needs.  We women feel the pressure of meeting our eternal needs of safety, sustainability, and status on their own.  We have a “restless craving” to realize our potential.  It’s all about RE-DISCOVERY of our amazing “greatness.”  The dilemma lies in the fact no one particular person can really define what that greatness or success looks like for us, as it is very individual for each person.  Some say that this search for greatness, or our grand purpose has no real definitive goal or destination.  Therein lies what some call the “CHALLENGE”….that in our search of REDEFINING who we are, there is ambiguity.  SO not everyone, and sometimes not even we ourselves will understand where we are at on this journey of a “Spiritual Transformation”!

For me personally, I can go to my Bible and allow myself to read who GOD says I am, as HE is my creator, and what HIS purpose is for me.  But I think because of EGO or SELF, we sometimes get distracted and taken off course of that God-pronounced long ago as our destiny…and need a time to get back in our own LANE of where it is we now fit.

I personally have seen so many try and “copy” or “duplicate” what others are doing, in the same way they are doing it…and they LOSE their own God-given design and purpose as GOD’s specific creation – and as one who has your own DNA, unlike anyone else! 

So…in trying to FIT IN to the NORM into society, careers and ministry purposes, have we LOST our TRUE SELF??  Have we just said YES to all the other people’s demands of us, and become what OTHER’s have expected us to be?  Have we really just been “people pleasers” all our lives, serving the needs of others—just so we can get the proverbial pat on the back and the affirmation of others that build up our ego?  And there are good things that come of serving, but in doing this I want to remind us all to NOT LOSE our AUTHENTIC SELF!

In essence,  I believe we have “GHOSTED”our true self!  By doing this, we start doing things from a place of other’s expections and out of a sense of obligation, rather than it being our SOUL’S CORE PURPOSE and HEARTFELT PASSION!!!  We start to get uneasy, aggravated, unhappy, tired, burnt out, and just become…well, BLAH!! LIFE BLOBS with NO JOY!

I want to encourage ALL of us…to seek and go after the DEFINITION of WHO you are, FOR REAL!  We need an ENCOUNTER with the DEEP REALITY of who we are as individuals!  Stop trying to imitate a “fake ideal” and truly DISCOVER….YOU! Be open to experiment with trying new things, going new places and meeting new people….strap yourself in…it’s about to get crazy!

Let’s go on this JOURNEY TOGETHER…stay tuned. 




December 20, 2018, 3:02 PM

WINTER IS HERE.....


WINTER is HERE….!

Winter is one of four Season’s in our Life.  I believe we can experience different Spiritual Season’s in life.  I also believe that, sometimes, like the natural environment and the land around us, we will transform and move into different Seasons…from one Season to the next.  We can experience Seasonal SHIFT’s in our lives. I believe right before the Winter season, we almost start to feel a drawing away of our soul—or going into “hibernation".   Winter is a time where we “go inside” and find our refuge from the cold, where we are resting and drawing warmth from within.  Nature “freezes” – stops and is silent.  It is almost like nature practices a quiet  “pause” before it burst forth into all the bright light and  loud colors of Spring.  I believe I am in a Season of Winter in my life.  A time that I can practice the pause, reflect and go within, a time of quieting my soul and reconnect with my deepest area of the desires of my heart.  A time to try to rediscover and define what true purpose is here on earth.    

 

Today I read so many things in my Bible…but came across a verse in Jeremiah 4…verse 19…

It said:  My bowels, my bowels! (Bowels could hold a meaning of “walls of my heart”-“distressed deep in my heart”).  I am pained at my very heart: my heart maketh a noise in me:  I cannot hold my peace, because thou hast heard, O my soul, the sound of the trumpet, the alarm of war. 

Here we know the prophet Jeremiah was distressed at the calamity he saw coming on his country.  However for me personally, this verse spoke to where my heart calamity is…dissatisfied with “life as usual”, and I feel that the Lord is leading me into a different area in my life now.  HE has spoken to me recently about not losing my voice, and staying in my lane.  I believe that I have been pursuing whatever opportunities came into my life…all doing very good things not in my lane…and being very busy going from thing to thing…but never achieving my God given purpose that feeds my Soul.  In those things that kept me busy for someone else’s vision, I have LOST my own voice.

 

I believe that I, at this age and stage in my life, am going through what I will call a “Soul Transformation”.  I have been feeling drawn to wanting to spend more time alone to read, study, write, reevaluate and reflect on where I am at this point in my life.  I have little or no motivation or just don’t have the fire to even continue in my career of real estate—it is not my passion, and I am completely uninspired by it.  I have little to no energy to even continue my life in the status quo, and have to push myself some days to just get up, get dressed and show up!  I just am feeling like I “DON’T FIT” where I am at in my life now.  The weird thing about this is that I have actively participated in every aspect of this life.

 

Transitioning to TRANSFORMATION is never a quick and easy process, and I believe we go through several transformation in our lives…from childhood to puberty, from puberty to early adulthood, from adulthood to mature adult, from mature adult to elderly.  I believe throughout our lives we can experience all types of transformations in our Spirit, Soul and Body.

 

So as I pursue my SOUL TRANSFORMATION,  I believe I will have to go through all 4-PHASES to rediscover my PURPOSE.  

 

The four phases are as follows:

 

  1. DISENGAGE

This is the place where you will need to let go of you old life that does not bring you joy or makes your heart leap.  In this phase you will need courage to let go of jobs and/or careers that you are not successful or advancing in, or is not moving you towards your God-given purpose or dream.  This will mean letting go of all that is NO LONGER NEEDED in your life to connect to your soul’s purpose.  It could start with a simple de-cluttering of your office, or closet.  It could also mean a dying to self or ego of the jobs you’ve kept around just because they brought you some sort of self-affirmation or identity.  It can also mean letting go of hurts, offenses, and bad attitudes or poor eating habits….and even letting go of toxic people in your life.  This process can take a while and will require great strength and courage.  It can feel like the DEATH or your OLD SELF… DON’T RUSH IT..the process.   You are looking to become the BEST version of yourself…spirit, soul, and body!  Let go of areas in your life that do not bring you to where God wants you to be.  Your spirit and heart are crying out to become ALL that GOD has already desired and put in you…it’s been there from the beginning….HE knew you in your mother’s womb.

 

  1. ENERGIZE

This second phase is about awakening your NEW LIFE.  This stage of excitement you will experience a burst of energy to move forward with your new life, before the first stage is complete.  Again..don’t rush the first stage.    You will have a new zeal for exploring old dreams and a curiosity of what the future holds for you in your new dreams or opportunities.  Don’t be quick to rush in…and allow this to all progress naturally and slowly.  The critical factor to this second phase is to: EXPERIEMENT….and DO NOT COMMIT.  EXPLORE your OPTIONS and DREAMS WITHOUT COMMITMENT!! Take some different educational courses, try out new opportunities, go on adventures, explore different relationships, do things that will light your fire of excitement again!  But remember….NO SERIOUS COMMITMENTS in this phase.

 

  1. ENVISION

This phase will be where you take a step and make the time to reflect, and create a NEW and improved vision of you!  This will come from the previous energizing phase of trying on new things and exploring new areas and roles that you may never have considered before.  Allowing yourself to be stretched out of your normal old comfortable zone in Phase 2 will help you discover the newer and better version of self.  This is where you will practice the “PAUSE”.  Creating a new vision for your life is serious business and you will need to take the time to step away from the old in order to see the new.  Make it a place where you won’t be busy with interruptions…and you can reflect on what is good in your current life, take stock of what you have learned in your past, and create a vision of what you want your life to be moving forward.  If you end this transformation process by committing too soon, and jump into opportunities, you will never achieve the true fulfillment your SOUL and HEART have been crying out for.  Don’t rush this.

 

  1. REVEAL

This last phase is the REVEAL of the vision you created in the ENVISION phase.  This is where it become reality.  Finally after months of soul searching, praying, writing, experience, trying new things, meeting new people, going new places, you feel a MOVING FORWARD …an acceleration…a momentum.  You have let go of what you no longer need and your renewed dreams and purpose are emerging and forming in your life.  You get in the right lane of allowing you new vision to come to light…to be REVELAED to all in your life.  You have more clarity and direction in all areas of your life.  Your newfound fire for life is back and will push you in the right direction to fuel your passion. There may be delays or detours in this new phase…doubt could come if your dream doesn’t reveal itself in full phase yet, but stay in the fight.  Pursue your dream with a tenacity and persistence.  Allow all the things you have done and learned in your previous phases and in your life to let your VISION finally be made REAL in the REVEAL!!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 




December 5, 2018, 10:33 AM

Set Backs That Lead to Set Ups for Success...


Set Backs that Lead to Set Ups for Success:

 

As I approach the New Year...I tend evaluate where I am at in my life?  What it is that I need to change?  What do I disengage from and re-engage in?  Am I successful?

How do we define success?  By what model do we use to measure that?  Is success truly “individual”?  What does God say versus what does our “worldly mindset” say?

I believe if we look at society today…the world defines success as having the high-paying career, large homes, luxurious cars, expensive clothes, fine dining, extravagant vacations,….mainly by the “material things”.  But I would like to challenge each and every one of us to consider what success looks like to God.  I do believe God wants us to prosper and be in good health, and that HE gives us the ability to get wealth.  I don’t believe “poverty” is His will for us. 

So many things are found in the following verses:

John 15: 4I As the branch cannot bear fruit of itself, except it abide in the vine; no more can ye, except ye abide in me.

5I am the vine, ye are the branches: He that abideth in me, and I in him, the same bringeth forth much fruit: for without me ye can do nothing.

6If a man abide not in me, he is cast forth as a branch, and is withered; and men gather them, and cast them into the fire, and they are burned.

7If ye abide in me, and my words abide in you, ye shall ask what ye will, and it shall be done unto you.

8Herein is my Father glorified, that ye bear much fruit; so shall ye be my disciples.

9As the Father hath loved me, so have I loved you: continue ye in my love.

10If ye keep my commandments, ye shall abide in my love; even as I have kept my Father's commandments, and abide in his love.

11These things have I spoken unto you, that my joy might remain in you, and that your joy might be full.

 

If we “BEAR FRUIT” and the fruit remains…then we GLORIFY the Father.  To me this is success!

If we consider what JESUS did for us…I would think that the most important factor for him would be to walk as HIS follower, obeying the things he said for us to do.  Obviously the two most important things that HE commanded for us to do in our life was to LOVE HIM, and LOVE OTHERS. 

He told us to go into all the world..and preach the gospel to every creature so that all that believe and is baptized shall be saved, to teach all nations, to heal the sick, cleanse the lepers, raise the dead, cast out devils.  God has given us a divine purpose.  Some of those things may look like: 

Our purpose is to do what is right, not only in the sight of the Lord, but also in the sight of others. (2 Corinthians 8:21)

God’s divine power has given us everything we need to live a truly religious life through our knowledge of the one who called us to share in his own glory and goodness. In this way he has given us the very great and precious gifts he promised, so that by means of these gifts you may escape from the destructive lust that is in the world, and may come to share the divine nature. For this very reason do your best to add goodness to your faith; to your goodness add knowledge; to your knowledge add self-control; to your self-control add endurance; to your endurance add godliness; to your godliness add Christian affection; and to your Christian affection add love. These are the qualities you need, and if you have them in abundance, they will make you active and effective in your knowledge of our Lord Jesus Christ. (2 Peter 1:3-8)

I have gone about among all of you, preaching the Kingdom of God. And now I know that none of you will ever see me again. So I solemnly declare to you this very day: if any of you should be lost, I am not responsible. For I have not held back from announcing to you the whole purpose of God. So keep watch over yourselves and over all the flock which the Holy Spirit has placed in your care. Be shepherds of the church of God, which he made his own through the blood of his Son. (Acts 20:25-28)

We are all looking for our divine purpose, and to achieve success in that purpose.  Could it really be all about what Jesus came to do? 

In life, I do believe that we have so many things that we are AFRAID to START for fear of failure…and what that failure is defined as.  I believe that sometimes the way we navigate through life is to “try new things” in order to discover that those “things” are not for us.  I don’t believe this defines us as failure, but could possibly define us as CORAGEOUS!??  I believe the biggest REGRET we will have at the end of our life is to just NEVER START something for Fear of Failure!  I also don’t think that things that we do can be wrapped up in a neat and tidy little package, as there are so many things that come into play when we attempt to move into a new adventure in our lives.  I do believe there are certain things in life that we can “bring in for a landing” or a “FINISH”…but other tasks that we take on in life will NEVER be so called “FINISHED”..that there are “eternal callings”, such as being a parent.  I also believe that there are many circumstances and decisions that others in our life make that will have an impact on what we are trying to accomplish…and this is completely out of our control.  Some would call these setbacks that stop them from achieving their calling, I say they are set-ups that will propel you into your purpose!!

So the question is….do we attempt to start a new endeavor with all the unknowns that accompany it?  Will we be successful in this endeavor?  What defines that?

What is the definition for Success?  Merriam-Websters defines it as “getting or achieving wealth, respect, or fame”. 

However, there have been many foremost authors, inventors, and entrepreneurs that may have differing opinions on what “DEFINES SUCCESS”.

Legendary Basketball coach John Wooden says … “Success is a peace of mind, which is a direct result of self-satisfaction in knowing you did your best to become the best YOU that you are capable of becoming.”

Author Stephen Covey said that the definition of success is deeply individual.  He said, “If you carefully consider what you want to be said of you in the “funeral experience,” he told the New York Times, “YOU will find YOUR definition of success”.

So this brings me to a personal place of self reflection as I approach the end of year 2018, how do I define success?  What does that look like for me?  What have I achieved and been successful with in my own personal life? What have I not?  Does surviving life’s trials make you an overcomer?  Is being an overcomer success?  I think this is a part of SUCCESS…

What are the rewards for simply being an “overcomer”?  We can read all of them in the Book of Revelation 2:7, 2:11, , 2:17, 2:26, 3:3, 3:5, 3:12, 3:21.

How does God define success?  What is HIS purpose for us?

If we look in the Bible…we find a number of mandates:   Love God, Love People.  Preach and point others to Jesus.  Follow Jesus.  Be obedient to His Word.  I want to “know HIM”, in a close and personal relationship. 

As we approach the upcoming New Year and most of us will do a deep assessment on where we are currently in our own lives…have you been pressing toward success defined by a “world culture”…or are we pressing into what Jesus asked us to do?

To me…success I believe is really lining up with what the Lord has asked each one of us to do, but more important…putting our priorities in line…LOVE GOD first, LOVE OTHERS next. 

Are there relationships in your family that need to be re-prioritized, to be cultivated to bring the restoration and healing that is so needed?  Are there marriages in trouble because we have put careers first over the love of our lives?  Are there friends that you have neglected at the expense or working harder to achieve more material things?  Have we neglected our health due to all the demands on our schedule?  Do we ever slow our roll long enough to smell the proverbial roses…to just simply….. BREATHE?

This holiday…I say…SLOW DOWN…take some time to BREATHE in the breath of God….re-examine where your life is at and where you want to go.  Then take a step of courage…and STEP OUT into the unknown…to achieve success …well …let GOD define that for you.  Don’t let fear overtake you! 

Be the CORAGEOUS son or daughter of GOD he intended you to be! 




November 26, 2018, 1:04 PM

So MANY QUESTIONS.....


Have we as a church body lost the desire for the "MORE OF GOD"??  Where is the FIRE and the PASSION and the DESIRE to simply....ENTER INTO HIS PRESENCE?  Have we forfeited PRESENCE for PROGRAMS?  PREACHING for SELF-HELP MESSAGES?  HEART FELT PRAISE for MUSICAL ENTERTAINING PERFECTION that is cut short....JUST before we allow the Holy Spirit to move into a room and change the atmosphere?  Have we been so concerned by the TIME CLOCK and staying on time, verses allowing GOD to do what HE WANTS to do in our gatherings?  Have our prayers become cold, quick and lifeless, instead of gut-wrenching TRAVAIL?  Have we desired SO MUCH to have our TITLES, that we forsake HUMILITY, SERVING, EQUIPPING and SENDING OTHERS into where GOD wants them as a gift to be used to reach others that are lost?  ARE we IGNORNING the WORD OF JESUS, and instead of just being obedient to what he says...or are we twisitng and turning the word of GOD and using it to manipulate the people into doing what WE WANT them to do?  WHY have we worshipped a building, a ministry, a man, and rules and traditions of men over the complete COUNSEL of what GOD's WORD SAYS??  Have we.....FORSAKEN our true identity to live in complete FREEDOM from all things that keep us in bondage, and go running right back to the things that HE DELIVERED us out of?

WHY do we put SELF.....on a PEDESTAL......ABOVE..........HIM??? The ONE and only glorious and TRUE GOD!!

Get back into your word....DO what JESUS said...don't add to it or take away from it....just OBEY!  

Love HIM with your whole HEART, SOUL, and MIND...then...........LOVE everybody else (and no, not in a codependent kind of love)...but LOVE them enough to SPEAK HIS TRUTH to them.

ALLOW the HOLY GHOST inside your CHURCHES and MEETINGS...allow GOD TO MOVE!!

Let us FOCUS on what really matters.........HIM....JESUS!  Point others to HIM.

That is all...........for now.

 


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